Hovering above the Present in the Third Reality

Imagine your head in a Tupperware Lettuce Spinner.  That is the perfect description of my brain, heart,and nervous system right now.  There is a disorientation that has come over me, as I prepare to leave. I have lived for the past six weeks in the Third Reality.  Linda (Stone Fish)  really helped put my experience together for me. We were skyping and I was talking incoherently. She wisely pointed out that I was trying to hold both realities, Israel and Palestine. My brain was short wiring.  And then I thought, of the article I wrote for the Psychotherapy Networker many many years ago,  I believe it was called,  "Thinking Outside the Box, Creating A Third Reality". 

I have for six weeks tried to stay grounded as I held on to two very painful realities. I have for 6 weeks held Israel and Palestine:  the people, the cultures, the incredible beauty, the violence, the hate, the history, and the present, all  in my brain at the same time.  I have for six weeks held: the mothers' tears from both sides.  I have for six weeks held the disgusting Revenge and Retaliation from both sides.  I have held for six weeks the need to Never Forget and the need to Acknowledge from both sides. I have held for six weeks the fear and grief from both sides.  For six weeks, I have held the anger and rage. For six weeks, I have tried to give safety and some vision of the future to the families of both sides,  I have tried to motivate the "Silent Majority" from both sides to use their voices louder.   I have tried to love the people, the children, the beauty of  nature of the land, the humor, the hope, the sacredness and the perseverance from both sides.

 Living life in the "I am Right -You are Wrong" reality is simpler, so much simpler.  You are either with me or you are against me.  The Future does not come from that Reality. Possibility does not come from that Reality. Hope does not come from that Reality. Change does not come from that Reality.

I have walked back and forth between the literal and spiritual checkpoints of two different realities. And I have chosen to work hard at holding both. I have lived in the Third Reality.  Our work isn't done till the Third Reality becomes the only reality. It is absolutely in no way time to leave, and I am leaving.